Scared little girl...

I just recently got a new puppy.  Her name is Precious and she's 10 months old.  She's still adjusting to her new environment, which means there are times when she whines and cries.  She cries because she is scared.  She's scared of being alone, scared of the unknown, and anxious to feel comforted and secure.  She reminds me of someone very dear to me, and that's my inner child.  She, too,  is sometimes scared and anxious.

When I'm transitioning or growing to a new level in life...I experience extreme anxiety.  I can distinctly remember a time when experienced this, I would seem calm, but my heart would be beating a mile a minute!  Why was I so anxious?  I was letting go of an old love, and I was setting myself free to experience something new, meet new people, to start over.  My inner child was scared as hell!  She didn't want to be alone, who knew how long before I would connect with someone again?  She was scared of the unknown...what if I attracted that old pattern again???  And she was anxious, oh so anxious, to be held and feel secure in a loving romantic relationship.  Sometimes I just wanted cry and whine. 

In these moments, I have to be patient with myself and just ride it out.  I have to reassure her that everything is gonna be okay.  I tell her/myself that the past is over and the future is bright!  There's nothing to be afraid of.  God has my back!!  I look forward to attracting honest, trustworthy, and emotionally supportive relationships.  I can see it, and feel it, it will be great!  I then hold myself, my inner child, and I tell her that I love her.  Even when no one else is around, I'll always be here to love you, adore you, and make you feel secure...

Comments

[Elycia]

Wow! I couldnt have said it any better.

I too have that scared little girl in me. But I wonder if thats the little girl in me or the scared young growning woman blaiming her fears on the little girl. She's sometime, well most of the time afraid to show her face. She's afraid to truly love again/to hand her heart to someone again & to let her true emotions show because shes afraid her ego will get bruised. She wants so much more in everything but she is afraid of what she has to do to get more because of her own insecurities.. I was gone to say more but reality literally just hit me. Thinking about it, in my case Ive had the little girl confused with the young woman. Hmmmmm...

[Candyce]

Loving and taking care of yourself is the first step to pulling that love back to you.

Hang in there...